Caught the movie Happy Birthday with ML.

After that went to Waterloo Place or whatever is that place called. Wanted to surprise Kum with the oh-so-pretty cupcakes but they say I have to order it 3 - 5 days earlier, so I end up buying her a carrot cake (as shown below). Cab to her house, tried to light up the damn candle but the wind was too strong. Gave up trying. Called her and ask her to open the door. Well, she say I am bad liar, bad candle lighter and so on. (Hahaha!) But glad she and her Mom likes the cake.

Happy belated 19th birthday woman! =)

I went to see 吳尊 and Ella after school, together with Shermin, her cousin, Diana and her friend. Finally, I got to see 吳尊 in person, got his signature and I also got to shake his hands. Oh my god! He's so handsome!!!! Handsome handsome handsome! -skips around-

Wait, one bad news, 許瑋倫 passed away in a car accident. Poor thing. Sigh. Life's soooo fragile.

I want that white bag from SKIN at Heeren! But it cost a big fat $529 and my brother ask me to forget about that bag, go to thailand and get a similar one.

• I'm sorry to you and you.
• Happy belated 19th birthday to Kamhong.
• Shopping tomorrow with brother.
• I _ you. :)
• Still coughing.

When you called, it was good to hear your voice, but harder to hear you laugh. I had to choke back tears when you said you were okay with this. The days go by slowly, each more painful than the last. I try to understand, I got my defenses up so high. It's sad, but I have never been this alone. I guess I've really done it, you won't look into my eyes. I won't cry, but I will wither up inside and never be the same.

Now I know that love isn't that easy, but we tried, didn't we baby? It's alright, some dreams weren't meant to come true. - I'm running out of lies.

I used to be told I deserve better... I just wish he was better.

I'm so confused. I want to let go of all this pain, but I'm afraid I'll go insane. He may come back, I have some hope, but with everything else, how can I cope. I can't explain this feeling, I think about it everyday and even though we've moved on, it gets so hard to walk away.

Somehow I can't put you in the past and I'd do anything just to fall asleep with you. Will you remember me? Cause I know I won't forget you.

I'm frozen. I can't find the words to tell you that I love you. I can't tell you how much you truly mean to me. I can't tell you I fell asleep on my pillow, crying softly; I needed you, I needed you terribly. And I can't tell you how much I hope you'll be here. So instead, I tell you I hate you and bye. Hoping that you know I meant the other way round.

But, only to realize that wishes often don't come true and hearts are more often then not, broken. So I stand there and watch you walk away.



I figured maybe if my heart stops beating, it wouldn't hurt so much.

English CA1 down.
Maths CA 1 down.
Now, I'm left with Mangement group and individual project, Maths CA 2 and English CA2. My god! All this assignments and projects are killing me. -vomits- AND, examinations are on 1st, 2nd the 3rd of March. -vomits again- Ahh.. I totally dread going to school on Saattuurrrdddayyysss. =( -vomits vomits vomits-

Anyway, skipped Pilates for tuiton and I'm glad my daddy didn't nagggg when my mum told him I ask Raymond back to tutor me. =) Daddy also say that he's going to bring us to shop for new year clothes tomorrow, but elder brother have to go back to camp for don'tknowwhatreason and he's jealousss. -laughs-

On a lighter note, Leonard is finally in Primary 1 and as a generous/nice sister I'm giving him like extra $2 - $5 to his daily allowance of $2, so that he can buy all the nonsense things from the school book shop. My! When I was at his age who is there to give me extra moolahs to spend?


P/s: Me-me brighten up my days! <3s
Pp/s: I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.
Ppp/s: OMG OMG OMG! Detective send me a smile on friendster. (Hahahahahahaha!)

Assignment not done, project not done. Every fucking shit is not done and I got to fall sick at this time. Well done.

Once again, I got my tutor(s) help for projects and Maths. -smiles-

They are the ones. =)

-

You'll taste your own medicine one fine day.

• Finally have a little chat with Mommy online. Can't wait to see her next month.
• Hope everything turn out fine for Zoe and her bf.
• Still hate everything about those fucked up lecturers.
• Went down Tampines to see a dermatologist but found out that it have moved to don't know where.
• Cramps.
• Flu bug have gotten in me.

School. (I totally hate the thought of going to school now, since ALL the fucking lecturers are picking on us. I seriously don't understand why? Damn it!)
Town with girls.
Shopping and dinner with family.

So...... my Saturday ended just like that and I seriously need moreeee beauty sleep. -yawns-

Something to be happy about, my elder brother gave me fifty out of his weekly allowance. I hope he do that every week. =))

My friend send me a photo yesterday and I was laughing mad when I saw it. I wish I could post it up here so that we can all laugh but decided not to since I'm nice.

Anyway, we crashed B class on Monday and the Eng lecturer found out. Boohoo. Nothing serious though. =) Meryl called us the '7 Flowers' and I went 'no, its 6 Flowers and 1 za cao.' Well, I guess only they understand. (Hahaha!) Maths tomorrow. -roll eyes- There he goes blabbering to himself for the whole 2 hours and 45 minutes. Total insanity. Can't eat, can't talk, can't laugh, can't whatever. How I miss those DMFS days. Where we just come back much later from the 15 minutes of break we are get, yet we're still one fo the earliest. Now, damn, 5 minutes late and we get all the fucking shitty stares. Kiasu pork people who also come to school hell early to 'chop' seats and so we have to do the same if not there will be no seats left for us.

Nuff' of school stuffs. Guess its getting reallll boring. Oh wait, did I ever mention Detective didn't manage to pass the examination. =((( What a waste!

And, I'm suppose to take my basic theory but I'm dragging and dragging and still dragging. Not wanting to make my way down ubi. Laziness is eating in me.



P/s: School is from Monday to Saturday. Total crap time table.

Finally able to come online. Modem was down ever since don't-know-when.

Anyway, school have officially started on the 3rd of Jan. Hate it when I got to wake up at 6.30am. Totally wear me out. Hate the 2 new lecturers and that asshole Yap. Only thing I'm happy about school is that Meryl and company always make my day with their laughters. =)

Projects, assignments are already piling up. No time to even breath.


I was feeling a tinge bit sorry for you but I take it all back now. You don't deserve it, you don't deserve anything. I never knew you were such a person. Oh well! Coming to think of it, 6 months is too short a period to actually get to know someone, but prolly too long for me to see what a person you are. We or rather I never expected this friendship to sort of end here. We are not suppose to interfere in YOUR personal life, but then again why in the first place did you come telling us your story/secret and c'mon you are dealing with our friend so what makes you think we'll stand aside and do nothing. Next, 'we don't know how to seperate between school and personal stuffs'. You're in no place to say that cause' you're doing the same too. And if you are thinking that we can't do without you in our group then you're wrong cause' we're most glad not to have you in it. Don't ever think of coming back. =) I'm sorry if I'm being harshed or whatever cause' I seriously can't be bothered with someone behaving like a primary school kid.


On a lighter note, I miss Mommy like strawberry ice-cream topped with fresh strawberries and whip cream.