Results will be out tomorrow. =(

I want all my SIM girlfriends and boyfriends to make it to the next level and hopefully I'll be able to join them.

I so don't want to take the supplementary paper.
I so don't want to mug for the same thing again.
I so don't want to waste all the nights that I have studied.
I so don't want to seperated from the 3 girls. <3

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Heading down to Marina Bay for steamboat on 2 December with most/some of the 5A peeps to have a farewell party for Mr Tan.



P/s: I've join Pilates and class starts on December 15.
Pp/s: I'm down with sore throat, cough and flu.

Till then.

(=

Stabbed by JOCY.

Bold the statments that are true to you.
Italise the statments that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 ppl to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glass or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijauna.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I'm totally smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it is safe, free of cost and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really nice.
I have long hair.
I lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the ways I look.
I'm usually pessimistic.
I have alot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have alot of friends.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV in a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I called a cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have alot to learn.
I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I've tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think Pizza Hut have the best pizza.
I use my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I'm happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I study for the test most of the time.
I'm comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot whenever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at Mcdonalds' Restaurant.
I hate office work.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I love sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst person.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I do stupid things.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can make my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal i written in.
I can't stick to diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing tree is a brillant past-time.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person I'm working with.
I'm a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to 15 conventions.
I will collect anything and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm am artist.
I will clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenalin junkie.

Maybe the real, I mean REAL Robots will make a better lover. =D

Today:

Aww.. The handsome guy, Kenji (something). He was performing at Metro, the Ladies Affair. =) He's like the 'ang mo' version of Edison. -drools-

Day at K-box:

Out with Lyd and our younger brothers:

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Its Nutty's birthday today. Happy Birthday to you, Nutty! Hope to see ya soon. Till then, take lots of care and remember I love and miss you always. =)

Now, here's the only photo I have with her and its taken like 2 years ago? =)

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P/s: Will upload rest of the photos after I have scan them. Too lazy to do it now.

Pp/s: Results will be out in another six fucking days.

Ppp/s: I cut my hair and I fucking hate it. No, I'll not step out of my house until it gets longer.

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday LIM SHEE YIN!!
Happy Birthday to you!

Happy birthday my dear girl. You're my super nurse, always. =D

Watch this space.






You will always be the special someone but can never be the only one.

Supposed to be a happy day for me today cause' I bought my long awaited 7373. But, no.
I couldn't help it but cry when I heard the sudden news of Dr Toh Wei Keong, 32, passing away. He's too young to pass away. He's only 32. Sigh. He's not only a doctor to me, but also a friend. When I was still living in Sengkang, he's the doctor that I always go to when I'm ill. He's the nicest doctor you can ever find. Cheerful, kind, polite, sweet and anything nice you can think of. He probably has it all. Sigh. I haven heard or seen him for a long time and now, he have passed away. But at least, he passed away peacefully. Rest in peace, Dr Toh. I'll always remember you.

Life's so fragile. Who knows, who might go next?


Fuck! I'm so fucking devastated! Fuck fuck fuck fuck!

Like dancing partners, we keep changing our minds, you are the epitome of fickle-mindedness and like a waltz, the deception never ends. You play me to the tune of your music and I arch for you relentlessly. I allow you to lead me deeper into the symphony of forgetfulness, I am forgetting what I stand on, forgetting what I came here for.

And, when the lights go out its not the darkness I see. Its the tinge of cherries streams of dreams like a waterfall gush to the grey valleys below flooding all humanity, eroding all that I stand on. When the lights go out its you I see, your presence I dare not intrude your statue I dare not embrace for we are nothing but floodplains in the valley.

Am I the only one that knows how to amaze? Am I the only one with the magic wand? Do you say one thing, turn your head and mean another or do you look at me thru tinted glasses when you tell a lie. I see a replica in the mirror but its not you and I, its all but a substituted illusion. I should have left humanity that day as living is finding the meaning of meaningless only to find an empty pot at the end of the rainbow. Its during times like this I wish for nothing then I won't lose you.

Everytime I think about these, I think too much. Loving you becomes impossible, it becomes a sin. And now I close the door and take my leave.


快乐是我的不是你给的
寂寞要自己负责
我要的我现在才懂得
选择是我的不是你给的
若我们再见我会微笑
谢谢你谢谢你
我尝过爱的好

弃权 - 容祖儿

很疲倦
在留与离开之间周旋
慌到没有知觉
你只想爱我几天几夜
我天真以为
能几年几月
掉进一个谎言
手不肯放
就会整个沦陷

很危险
怎么能爱得那么卑微
等着被你忽略
害怕得眼泪流一整夜
但你的安慰
却只给一点
应该怎么摆脱
爱情的包围
让我往后退

对你的热情
你的虚伪
再也不眷恋
我试着判断试着习惯
被爱的盲点
完全弃权
不让你分配快乐伤悲
放弃为你
再生别用等待来熬夜
放弃配合你
要个情节做个心虚的演员
爱你的泪
明天会不见
春天应该不远

爱上你对不对
不再奢望
哪天会又见
爱你时常蒙眼
眼看着你
出去游戏人间
只任自己
埋怨
后悔

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Anyway, did I ever mention that I want to take a scooter license after I get my driving license? Yes! I want to do so. Well, if only the parent unit allow me to. I'm so in love with the Hello Kitty scooter displayed at downtown east. =)

P/s: Does anyone actually knows when that nokia 7373 is launching?

You're fading away like how the words fade away from the movie ticket.

Here's one song Mommy sent me.



我可以忍受 - 徐婕儿

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你遥远的梦
就算是变化挖空我
至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受做了那么多
使她拥有我该得到的温柔
(使她拥有我没看过的笑容)

爱着你
是我改不了也不愿改的习惯
要放开哪有那么简单
了解你
是我说不出也不承认的悲哀
包容你
是我体谅的爱也当作应该

不要说对不起
原来你要的不是我
不要说谢谢你
什么你永远在我心中
can u tell me why
这样的我-你也曾爱过

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They keep saying time heal all wounds but why don't I see my wounds healing?
They keep saying good things are worth waiting for but I've waited for such a long time and still don't see my wait worth while.
They keep saying the right person will come along but I guess he got stuck in the drain or got knock down by a car.

And now I say, all this while, you've been lying. All your words pour out like sweet sick misery. You're holding onto these words like they mean something, but I'm simply holding onto the next memory. We look a little like the tired backseat after the midnight rendez-vous have taken their toll and we become nothing more than shallow images of ourselves once held to the light.

You played me on. Played me like a clown. It's sad to be true and be fooled by you. You twist and turn me around. You gave me hope which brought me up to heaven but within split seconds you brought me down to hell. You make me felt that I was the only one and at the same time you also make me felt that I was just a nobody, nobody. And, how can I ever thank you for all that?

They were right to say, I deserve someone better. I don't understand why am I not hating you or cursing you at this very moment, yet I'm wishing you happiness from now until always.

• Got Kum to help me get another two junk food tee online.
• I'm gonna forget about the vodafone which is out of stock everywhere cause' I'm totally in love with the new powder pink nokia 7373.
• I'm spending money like my father owns a money printing factory.
• Going down for a interview at Raffles with Malini, at 10am tomorrow. Hope I sucessfully get that job, and no, I won't quit within two days.
• Class chalet tomorrow. Having second thoughts about going.
• Sheeyin can't go to the SHE concert with me. =(
• Fuck! I can't believe this is happening.

Exams are finally over. Now, I can get all the sleep I want. Twenty hours a day. But the worst has yet to come. Results. Hope I don't need to take the sub papers. -prays hard-

Anyway, went town with Kum today. Glad the rain didn't spoil our mood and I bought all the stuffs I wanted. Two junk food tees and two pair of shoes, one red and one white. A lot broker but a lot happier. I saw this very cute toy robot at Muji, gonna get it the next time I go there. (=

Okays, I'm off to look at junk food tees online. Cheerios.

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P/s: I wanna go SHE concert!!!!

Shattered dreams cut through my mind. Tragically, our love has died. Memories confine my head. Bitterly, I face the end. Trustingly, I gave myself to you. I let you inside. Believing your lies. Stranded here in nothingness. With only tears and loneliness. Foolishly, I gave my soul to you. Helplessly, I fell so deep. But, sometimes, things don't work out right and you just have to say goodbye. I won't see your smile and I won't hear you laugh anymore. It's too late to tell you but I really need you to know, no, I'll never forget you and you'll always, always be the someone special, and anytime you need a friend I'll be here, like always. J.


break the glass ceiling again
then he would never return
because illusions do not exist
on fragmented surfaces

AWW.... JASON!

After their school concert. No photos of Jeremy cause he went to my grandma place.

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结局竟是离去的背影
下决心也不容易忘记
伤得让人刻骨铭心
决堤的眼睛变得不透明
模糊了你也模糊了自己
能不能从此失去记忆
该不该从此埋葬爱情
就让时间带走所有悲伤的痕迹
不再有你也许并不容易
只有放过自己去忘记你
忘记你才能放过我自己

P/s: Sorry Wu Chun, I got to put you aside for now cause' Jason is back. Hehehehehe.

Pp/s: Just when I thought I was over you and this broken heart was about to mend. Someone called out your name and I just have to cry.

Continuous Assessment Results

ELEMENTS OF ECONOMICS ------ D
INTRODUCTION TO MANAGEMENT ------ C
PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNTING & BIZ FINANCE ------ C
SALES & MARKETING MANAGEMENT ------ A
STUDY SKILLS IN ENGLISH ------ B+


My results are not very good but at least I manage to pass my CA. Now, the main examination, which starts next week, 6 of Nov. And, I'm determine to pass my DMFS and go DMS. Wish me luck! (=

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I Wish You Knew - Mariah Carey

And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you baby

Honestly I know it's silly of me
To want you so badly
But keep it concealed
See my inferiority complex kicks in
And the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

这是我最后
最美最真
最心碎的留言
爱我好吗
我愿意让伤心再来一遍
只要你留一个位置给我
哪怕是在你心中
最容易被忽略的角落