Went to catch Rob-B-Hood with KL after school. The baby is ultra adorable I tell you! =)

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Changed of plans tomorrw. Supposed to go down to Cocco Latte to celebrate Samm's birthday BUT the sudden family dinner spoils everything. I hate it when I've everything planned then my mum say, "This Saturday, third uncle is asking us out for dinner." "Can I not go!?" "No!" Blah blah blah. I've got no say in this. And the only reason is, cause' its third uncle. Well, prolly only the Tan's family understands. =D

And, I'm supposed to go and study with the girls but in the end decided not to. No reason why. Just don't want to.



You spin in my head, like the sadest song I can remember.

This is what I've been doing in school recently. Drawing on my notes and scribbling on papers. Saw that guy in shades? Yes. He's my POA teacher, Mr Daniel Tan. =D

Anyway, meeting Chenghuan tomorrow. Cheers.

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Chenghuan says I should look for my own happiness, instead of hanging on and torturing myself.
Mommy says I deserve someone better.

But............... it’s only him, no substitutes who can renew this soul again.

Received a message from Meow this morning and it scare the shit out of me. Anyway, you'll be just fine. Don't worry. ((:

First, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIXIANG THE UGLY NOSE. ((:

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Ran away from school, went to Paragon to meet my elder brother and back home. And my computer have some virus attacking it. And the pop-up "Your computer is DANGER" keep appearing. Fucking computer! Forever dying on me when I need it most. Hope it just die forever, lar.

(The uncle came to save my com)

Now, my computer is back. I realised I lost my Sales and Marketing notes. Dang it!!!!! I hope its under the table or something. =(





You're the treasure I long to find.

Edited: 7:01PM

I was watching the Tribute to Steve Irwin. Yes,we'll miss him (:

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If I could say this term "I love you" I'd scream it so loud that even God would hear me. You pull me out from inside and I've never wanted you this bad before.





I want to sleep so I don't have to think anymore of the things that confuse me.

I dream of you, dreaming of her.

You ask me what I want.
You ask me what I need.
It's nothing you can buy.
My heart's not ruled by greed.
I don't love a diamond.
Diamond's you see through.
I want you to hold me.
I want you to be true.

Give me the gift of love.
Look me in the eyes.
Say I'm the one you're dreamin' of.
That'd be the best surprise.
Give me the gift of your sweet love
In the light of the day,
In the dark of night.

Like the colors of the sun,
The feelings in your heart.
It's all I want from you.
And when the sky is dark
I'll have you beside me.
Who could ask for more?
I'll just wear a smile
When you walk in the door.

Gift Of Love

Hello! I've just got to let you know

Cause I wonder where you are, and I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you
Tell me how to win your heart, for I haven't got a clue.
But let me start by saying... I love you.

Lionel Richie - Hello

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All I have are my memories and records of events about you. Constantly replaying over and over within my head like some broken carousel or a track on repeat that skips half way through.

In order to honour my promise to put on 5 kg within a month. (i'm 45kg now) I ate fried rice in school for lunch, a pineapple tart and a chocolate and drank some tea for tea break, mentos chewy, half a can of china apple and bubble milk tea from Hougang. Dinner later and maybe supper?! =D

During that Yap lesson I was drawing, dreaming, making a flower out of a tissue paper, talking, and everything else except studying. Kill me now. Exams are just round the corner and this is what I'm doing.

And, I had such an embarassing encounter during break.

By the way, presentation is just this Thursday and I totally abhor it. I'm feeling so jittery about this crap.

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At Tao Payoh Long John Silver.

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Love laced with tragedy, a sense of agony, why can't I feel love as in a fairy tale? My heart is growing pale, and now I've lost this... love.

P/s: Promises are NOT meant to be broken.

Went Bugis with Kamhong and Wilson, it was a last minute decision cause my class end at 4. Ate Seoul Garden. Rant and rant and rant at the both of them, probing why clubbing is good?! why smoking is good?! and blah! I guess they almost died from all my nonsense. Anyways, Wilson was nice enough to help me carry my bag. =D Walked around and cab home.

The song Pretty Boy by M2M have been playing on my Mp3 over and over and over again when I went to school this morning.

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Aww... You're capable of putting a smile on my face all day long. ((:

"You'll always be the special someone."

Always, J.

I'll die happy now, very happy. (=

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I've come to realised that, no matter how hard I attempt to complicate things and how much I struggle to ease the tensions -- I can't seem to expunge you out from my life, my soul.

Yes, I've been trying all methods to transgress the reminisces, even to the extent of falling into utmost desperation. I've tried preaching to almost everyone that I've a particular interest in them and also, perhaps, I've already forgotten the kosher meaning of condescension.

Every affair of yours imprints a concrete impact within me. Still, I'm trying. I'll eventually transcend this uphill battle. But, maybe not.

Didn't go to school today cause' I wanted to study for the IOM test tomorrow but instead of studying, I laze around, went blog-hopping, peeking at people friendster profile and watch the Animal Planet. (;

Malini just called and she said, the Econs teacher told them that less then half of our class pass the Econs test and she's gonna reveal the ones who passed and the one who failed next lesson which is this Wednesday. Crap.

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Lying is an art.

I meant to say we're fading, but just a little. And it's like kisses drunk on cheap wine and strawberry after-effects. Affects. Defects. You touch me. I mean to say it hurts so good, but words were never my strong suit, like lovers strung out on cheap drugs and better love-making than the story books would have us believe. But what I really believe is not in once upon a time and happy endings, but in something far less substantial between sheets and sips of perfect lips and bottles and colours that spin. We are between loving and indifference, fading just a little in the sun. Kiss me like you mean it, like it matters or something. But really, it won't.

Dinner tomorrow night with my family to celebrate my uncle's birthday.




Watch this space.

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go...

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because the most beautiful things in the world is unseen. There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new life.
Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.

What is a great love? Is there such a thing as that? Well, in my opinion, it's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you. All the best. My best wishes are for you and Her." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Don't dwell over something that you have chosen to let go, but embrace the fact that that person now is much happier than before. Even if they have found another, shed not a tear of sorrow for what has happened, shed a tear of joy for the person.
Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it. Be strong, and know that someday, you'll look back and laugh about everything. The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up on their own when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a life long appreciation of the choices you've made.
Regrets may seem like a bad choice in life, but if you think about that particular path that you took, you'll realize that you have become stronger and ready to face the cruel society.
Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive,not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...


Took this from Mommy's blog, and post it here cause I find it real meaningful.

Much love to Mommy. (:

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Okay, I don't understand why people could actually comment that Steve Irwin, deserves it, he got it coming and all sorts horrible comments. He has already passed away, so why can't these people just shut up.

Animal Planet have also suspend his shows temporally and his wife would have the final say in whether the footage of his last moments alive would be made public. And I hope she wouldn't agree to it. I mean, who would want to see him die and stuffs.

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Went to the Hougang pasar malam with Shermin after school, ate then went to seat one of the rides. And, it scare the shit out of us. The both of us was practically screaming throughout the ride and our legs went wobbly halfway. I so wanted to ask the uncle to stop that damn machine and let me down. I'm a scary cat lah. Bah! After that, sat down at Mac and studied a little for the Econs test tomorrow. I'm feeling so nervous and I reckon I'm gonna flung it.

End here for now. Love all.

Steve Irwin also known as the Crocodile Hunter was killed Monday, which is today by a stingray while filming off the Great Barrier Reef. He was 44.

Read more Here and Here.

When I went to MSN.com and I saw "‘Crocodile Hunter’ Steve Irwin killed by stingray", I clicked on it and I almost burst into tears when I realised the Crocodile Hunter has passed away. I wanted to know more on what happen and I turn on the tv, tune in to channel 13, BBC World and I saw the sad news. Sigh. =(

I always enjoyed watching his show. Nevertheless, he's one brave guy that brought joy and entertainment and excitement to millions of people.

Rest in peace, Steve Irwin the Crocodile Hunter. 1962 - 2006

After a week of holidays, I'm going back to school tomorrow. And seriously, a week of holidays is definitely not enough. Studied quite a bit for the upcoming Econs test. Econs drive me mad. I wish I had went to MDIS instead of SIM. Guess, life there is much easier. Too late for regrets now. I'll just have to stick with it for the next 2 years if I pass my foundation.

Sigh. I feel the stress when I see people putting their personal message as "mugging" while mine is "he's gone forever ♥". There people are mugging and here Jeanie Tan is blogging, up loading pictures, watching tv, texting....................

Okays, I promise I'll work hard to pass this foundation shit and get my ass into DMS.

And I have yet to finish my project. Meeting my groupmates up tomorrow at 12 to do our project. That means I have to wake up early again, I hate it. Talking about projects always somehow remind me of the presentation. I can't imagine having to stand in front of the class all by myself presenting. I reckon I'm gonna make a fool out of myself. Gawd. I feel butterfiles in my stomach. -pouts-

5566!!

Show and Rainie

ANDY LAU and Rainie

So cute!

(:

Enough of pictures.

My younger brother got his hand burned cause he went to touch the light bulb, and when I asked him, "Leonard, why you so stupid to go and touch the bulb? Hahaha." and he went, "I want to see whether the light hot or not. -smiles cheekily-" My mother scolded him for being too curious. Well, this is what we call "kids", isn't it?

Anyhows, I miss him, but apparently, it's makes no hoohaa differences cause he's elated with his own life now and I shouldn't care, no I shouldn't.


Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there's no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
take away my sadness
ease my troubles that's what you do

You fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
ease my troubles that's what you do

Have I told You Lately - Rod Stewart

Till then.

Caught the Devil Wears Prada with Kum at Tampines just now.

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